The Butterfly Circus

The Butterfly Circus

Culture

Transformation Of The Heart Blow after blow, we rise from the ashes of our never-dying ego. At times, there is an impression that a collapse is imminent, and then it seems that everything is going to be okay. Only through such gradual, step-by-step development do we become aware that we must change. The internal collapse we don’t wish to experience but are all subject to is necessary solely in order to pull us out of our own swamp, elevate us, and force us to start thinking. As a matter of fact, a consistent painful experience is but a persistent call to change.  All trials and tribulations gradually pull a person out of himself, meaning out of his or her ego. With each new step “out of ourselves” that we take, we process another type of egoism, its greater part. Repeated blows to the ego still don’t let us feel the difference and realize that with each time, our egoism goes through greater transformation and teaches us about who we are. It is extremely diverse and adapts to any situation. It always seeks how to benefit… There is nothing accidental; nothing happens just “because”. Egoism helps us to evolve, and therefore, we cannot skip the stages of our development until the ego reaches its height and alters, or rather, transforms in order to use its own energy to act altruistically – for the good of all. But before we are conscious and mature enough to realize our altruistic potential, we have to swallow every pill, which is the only way to learn. There is no other option. Then, when we...
I Am

I Am

Culture

Any crisis creates an impression that a collapse is imminent, and then it seems that everything is going to be okay. Only through such gradual, step-by-step development do we become aware that we must change. Generally, it is necessary to understand that the collapse must be internal. It has to occur in our consciousness, in our awareness of how wrongly we treat ourselves and the world. It’s not in the fact that I was hit by a painful event, a disease, even death… All of this is necessary solely in order to pull us out of our own swamp of egoism, elevate us, and force us to start thinking. As a matter of fact, these particularly consistent acts—a sudden blow and its retreat until the next blow hits, then another blow and retreat—gradually pull a person out of himself. With each new step, we think it is all the same, but in fact, it is not so. Each new time, we process another type of egoism, its greater part. One blow to the ego, the second, and the third one, but we don’t feel the difference and don’t realize that each time, our egoism processes completely new states of understanding and existence. Egoism is diverse, and until it reaches its culmination, nothing will change. This is why we need to pass through so many small blows.  There is nothing accidental; nothing can happen out of the blue, by leaping over the states of internal development. We have to swallow every pill, which is the only way to learn. There is no other option....